Life in general. I'm not sure why, or what I've done to actually make it that way, but now that school for my brother and mom has started it just seems like... life isn't raining down on me like bullets and knives. No, I still don't have a job though I may have an interview; that's better than nothing.

I've been talking over some things with Clint, but not as often and maybe that's why I just feel... good I guess. I never really had a high self-esteem, but after leaving my previous job it just seems like life is calling. I've never been active with dating, but I just feel the want to actually try it out for once. An eighteen year old girl, never been on a date in her life and still isn't boy crazy, wants to start dating. But just doesn't know where to look yet. Mindee said that she would set me up with her boyfriends brother, and I told her straight up No. Her friends are not my kind of people, and I don't want to be involved with them anymore. I had a few that were involved in their kinds of things, booze/drugs/sex, and I just don't want any part of that.

And so, here be the life, pretty good life, of Pencils.

PS. If anyone laughs at my name I suggest you stop now. It was given to me by a good friend and just stuck; I will claim this nickname for all eternity. So shut it. Lol.